Tuesday, August 14, 2012


I remember that night like it was yesterday. I even have a headache like I did that night. My head is so full of thoughts, memories, conversations... My head hurts. :) For some reason, I won't let myself cry. Not today.

Any time I remember Hope, my thoughts are soon followed by thoughts of people who walked with us through the pregnancy and the two weeks of her life. I will never be able to express my full gratitude for all of those who loved on us and Hope. For the people who stood around us this night, two years ago. I can still see your faces as I looked around the room. The room was full. Full of love, sadness, grief, smiles, tears, encouragement and friends. It was full of friends. I can't imagine what it looked like from their perspective. I must have been a mess. But I felt so loved, so cared for. So tonight that's what I choose to dwell on... How incredible is the gift of friends. God in His goodness filled the room with people, faces that I can see even now. Thank you to my friends for being my friend. :) Thank you God for giving me these friends. Thank you God for my Hope.


  1. I was looking around my computer for some silly fashion blog that I've been following and re-stumbled upon yours. My attention was immediately diverted from what I was doing and just re-read your entire blog. I can't believe that it's been 2 years! Really??? It seems like yesterday that Hope graced this world with her presence... probably the most memorable event in my career to date! :) I'll always hold a special little place in my heart for you, Hope and your sweet family. Reading your blog again, I'm reminded how inspired I am by your faith and your outlook on life. So...thanks for the warm and fuzzies as I read your blog and caught up on your life! Good luck with the adoption process! Can I be there for that delivery too?!?! Ha! Can't wait to read more about that! Take care, Jamie, and tell your family hello. :)

    Leah Dempster

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    2. Another year has passed! I still remember how you cared for us and stayed with us. You were such a calming presence and I'm so grateful that God planned for you to be the one to be there!

  2. What I would have given to be able to have been there. My stupid heart and blood pressure acting up after Jensen's birth and not being cleared to travel broke my heart in two. I wanted to be there so badly. My thoughts and heart were with you. And my prayers. Love the Reasons family SO much.