Tuesday, August 14, 2012


I remember that night like it was yesterday. I even have a headache like I did that night. My head is so full of thoughts, memories, conversations... My head hurts. :) For some reason, I won't let myself cry. Not today.

Any time I remember Hope, my thoughts are soon followed by thoughts of people who walked with us through the pregnancy and the two weeks of her life. I will never be able to express my full gratitude for all of those who loved on us and Hope. For the people who stood around us this night, two years ago. I can still see your faces as I looked around the room. The room was full. Full of love, sadness, grief, smiles, tears, encouragement and friends. It was full of friends. I can't imagine what it looked like from their perspective. I must have been a mess. But I felt so loved, so cared for. So tonight that's what I choose to dwell on... How incredible is the gift of friends. God in His goodness filled the room with people, faces that I can see even now. Thank you to my friends for being my friend. :) Thank you God for giving me these friends. Thank you God for my Hope.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012


Happy 2nd Birthday baby girl! Mommy loves you and misses you so much that it hurts. You have forever changed my life but more importantly have drawn so many closer to the wonderful creator who made you. You are never far from my mind and often mentioned in our conversations. So many happy memories and moments. I can't thank God enough for your life and the way your story lives on. You will always be my sweet, baby Hope. 

Your Mommy